Now before I start writing about my experience, I know that all Women are not the same.
But at the age of 35 I am not going to take any more chances because I do no tend to make the right decisions when it comes to the opposite sex.
And if people like to hear about this, I will write more about it.

After my parents split up, me and my mom moved in with my Grandparents.
My Grandpa is still alive, but my Grandma is luckily not anymore, and that might be a harsh thing to say.
To me at least, she was a Demon or a Hell spawn that escaped purgatory or something.
For some reason she did not like me and I still to this day have no idea why.

She was a religious person and prayed every night when in bed.
In my teens I started to discover Metal and Rock and the Media in that time period condemned that kind of music.
Like people that listened to that kind of music were Satan worshipers or whatever was told on Belgian Television then.
So maybe that was it? I really do not know.

Men in our family were also pushed to go after construction work and hard labor for some reason.
Like I didn't want to study in that direction but was forced into that.
And then my Grandma was surprised that I did not put any effort into that.
So I was called lazy and other names so yeah fun times, and let's not forget called stupid and saying stuff like "You can't do anything else"
Just because they wanted me to go into a certain direction which everyone followed without question, but you just didn't talk back to your parents in those days.
Which is the dumbest thing I have ever heard because your parent does not know what he or she is talking about, you can't speak up and tell them here are wrong?

I still to this day suffer from anxiety about certain things, but is it because of my Grandma or something else?
Maybe it is a combination of both?
This has improved a lot though because she is not around anymore, and I started to work out.
Also, something I want to touch on, my grandma ran the household because she was very good at manipulation.
So when she said to me "You do not need to fight or argue, be kind to everyone" I listened to that advice.
As a man, that is the worst thing you will ever do because you will get bullied and picked on.
If somebody does not leave you alone you have to stand up for your self and if you do that everybody will be a lot better.

So if anybody finds himself in a similar situation like this, do not be afraid to stand up for yourself.
Because if you don't, things will only get harder. Our society always talks about bullying and harassment.
But nobody talks about how you should stand up for yourself, which is the best thing you can do.

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